Its over

The enitre story is elsewhere...I just have a few things oto get off my chest. I am filled with depression, self hatred, self loathing, self pity, remorse and indifference. I think what i did was for the best. As much as Ive gotten hurt in this, all in the name of "love" mind you, I never wanted it to end this way. yet somehow I knew. Just like I knew that if we had stayed together, the other or I would have bee negleted, and my money was on me. Better to have her hate me, and want me out of ehr life, that to love me and make me miserbale, knowing I cant be with her...all for now bad subject...